Frustration

How can someone be your absolute world and drive you completely mad at the same time? That is how I am feeling about Rowan right now. I love him so much, yet today his crying, constant attention and uncooperative nature is putting me over the edge. And for this I feel like a terrible mother. 
He is now 6 months old and yet again up every 2 hours through the night. He cries like a banshee so its not anything simple consoling will do. He isn't eating properly - a mere 16-20 oz during the day and therefore has not gained any weight. He refuses to eat. To top things off... he is now having trouble napping! The one thing he was an expert at before. He rolls himself over now in his frenzy and keeps himself awake (or wakes himself up). All of this is just adding up to one big ball of mommy frustration.
You know what makes it all even worse? When people say "if you need anything just give me a call and I'll help you out"... then, when you do they can't help because they are either too busy or just don't feel like it (not that they will actually tell you that - but its obvious).  Most days things are totally fine. Everything is going great ..and I just go with it, but today that just is NOT the case.
I need to sleep train him although I don't know what method to be using...but I know right now is not the time to start. If I don't have the patience during the day, I do not have the patience at 2am.
I feel bad for feeling this way... I look down at him right now and he's sitting in his bumbo playing ...or rather looking at the window and the trees swaying and there is a sheer innocence about him. Of course there is! He is 6 months old. He isn't purposely trying to annoy me. He's such a sweet little boy with the world of wonder at the tip of his iris. 
I just have to keep drowning myself in his innocence and remind myself that all he has is me (and his dad) and what we teach him and the love we have to offer.

Blessed Be