Simply Amazing

I'm sitting here in my dinning room looking in at my wee man in his Rainforest swing ... and it brings tears to my eyes how amazing and beautiful he is.  I simply can't believe he is mine. It is so wonderful. I'm sure it sounds a bit corny or sappy- but it's true. Sometimes I have moments where I feel frustrated (mostly due to lack of sleep) and have twinges of moments where I wish I could just watch a movie, write in my journal, read my book, go for a walk by myself, crochet... anything that I used to do alone and enjoy, but in this moment none of that really matters.
It's sort of weird. I kept feeling like I would like to go back to work part-time (mostly because we need the money) but then everyone would keep saying to me "enjoy this time while you have it. It goes by fast."  I understood them and did appreciate the time I have with him and love it too; however, I didn't fully get how important it was to embrace this critical time of his life while I can..  Yesterday I did.

I realized this is time I can never get back with him and I need to make sure I enjoy, embrace and make the most of it now.   He is so tiny, special and reliant on me.  I see the love in his eyes when he looks up at me - my husband even noted that he looks at me different than him.  I love the little expressions he makes, and the way he laughs. I love the way he holds my shirt when we cuddle. At the end of the day I simply love the way he loves me and needs me. Really, I need him too and I love him more than anything in this whole world.

The proudest momma,

Stacey